Sean and I have sort of a term we use around the house. The "about to go to work feeling". It is when you have to go to work in like 30 min. or an hour and you are sort of anxiously looking at the clock and don't really feel like you can get stuff done around the house because you're about to leave for work...you know that feeling?
Well the "about to have a baby feeling" is very similar...except for some people it lasts for a lot longer...for me it has lasted since I was full-term and not working...which has been almost a MONTH! Its hard to plan anything like dinners for the week, social outings, errands, or anything...I just feel like I shouldn't be to far away from home so at any moment I can grab my last minute hospital things, shower, turn up the AC...you know...do all the stuff you need to do before leaving the house for possibly a few days. So it's kind of like the "about to go to work feeling" except the moment that is coming is the most monumental, special, and important day of my whole life...so- it leaves me a little anxious.
I can't really complain, though. I feel wonderful, physically. I haven't been put on bed rest, the doc is not worried about me for any reason, Lily is moving around like a healthy, crazy baby...things are great-it's just a waiting game.
I decided not to do an induction (unless the doc deems it medically necessary) and let nature take its course. I just have to keep telling myself- "she's not late, there is a reason she is still in there, it will be worth the wait"
Due dates just make people nervous. Especially a type-A personality, like me. BUT we all have to just remember God is in control- not us. I wish I could tell my Salado community about that sometimes...I feel so bad for Sean going to church every day and getting the worried eyes and comments "NO BABY YET?". Oh, but I get it too- on the phone, email, Facebook, grocery store, restaurants, while I'm out walking...that is exactly why I have been hiding out in my house the last month. I am feeling the "NO BABY YET?" feeling every morning when I wake up...but I just have to calm down and remember that God's timing is perfect and she'll be here exactly when she needs to be here.